Seriously?

Spring 2012 is filled with heart break and questions.
I've never felt so unsure about everything.
I'm scared of my future, my life, everything. :/
Well. I'll be ok. :P I always am in the end.

Music classes are slowly going. No tests yet, but soon. Soon I will get my tests and I'll be updating everything. I didn't continue my work out stuff....I think I'll be restarting tomorrow. I've already dropped a course I'm sad to report, but it's a class I don't really need.

I might have a flute student to teach! a 6th grader who is a little behind with the rest of the class and wishes to catch up. I'm quite excited about that. This weekend I'll see Momma Walker and I do need her words of wisdom...I miss my momma lots.

I'll also be going to a recording studio up in Charlotte. That'll be an awesome experience. I'm excited.

Well...That's my update for now. I promise I'll be less slack about this.

Spring 2012

I have 11 classes total. It kinda sucks.
Especially when you hear about a friend only having 4.
It's ok. I knew what I was signing up for. It just gives me the determination to me when I become a teacher. :) I'm excited. Scared. and a little worried.

I will do well though!
I've also been exercising every other day to try to build energy and get fit! :)
This will be a good year I think. I hope. :)

Challenge. For Real.

I'm about to get a refund. yayyy.
time to pay momma back, pay off my credit card, and wait for it....

Eat healthy.
I hate. hate. hate. removing food from my life.

Buttery, savory, yummy food.

It'll be a mix of fruits and veggies [yay] and tofu and some seafood when I can afford it.

I'm scared. very. very. scared.

I've already done some exercising these past few days non stop. Pilates, crunches, planking, sit ups, and some yoga. running comes next to add on.

I'll be poor forever.

silly musicianess.

I know, why does this post go under sleepless musician? because it's gonna affect my schooling obviously.

If I'm grumpy, I'm sorry.

Theory, Aural, and Graduation.

So it's official...
I have a B+ in Theory 1 and a B- in Aural Skills 1!
I'm a little sad that it was only a B in theory, but I'm ok.
My GPA is now officially a 3.125!! It's quite exciting overall.
I plan to get an A in Theory next semester and do a little better in Aural Skills this semester.
I thought I was going to get a C or something in Aural and I was freaking out!

I am ok, and doing well. :)

My Big Sister in Delta Omicron graduated today.
She's THE reason why I made it so far and so well in Theory.
I'm gonna miss her! :( But it's ok. She'll still be around to help apparently.
SO YAY AND CONGRATS ANDREA! <3

procrastinating...

On sleep?
Yep. I surely am.
I'm freaking out over my three exams tomorrow...
Especially Education.
And maybe a little on Voice Methods...
Ok, maybe a lot.

Just tomorrow will be scary and it starts as soon as I wake up.
No prep time at all.

I studied a lot for it...
But is it enough?
We'll see, right?

Doing well!

Got a B in Piano 3.

It's one of the few subjects that I'm actually keeping up in and doing well. My GPA is going to be a 3.0 this semester! I can tell.

I have to study for education 210 and voice methods a lot. D: I'll be fine though. 3 more exams.

Theory One.

I SHOULD. get an A in that class. honestly, I'll be a little upset at myself if I don't because I'm so confident about that final exam, and I got a 95 on my project. It's amazing what happens when you get a teacher who actually teaches a class.

I feel like a lot of professors just don't care about teaching and making sure students actually UNDERSTAND the material these days. It really bothers me that they act so uncaring about questions and sometimes seem so pestered when you ask questions to better understand the concept.

It's your job to teach, so please do it.

Thank you to Dr. Lewis for being so great at teaching.
[It helps a little that he's quite nice to stare at and pay attention to as well...]

:D

I meant to post this earlier

It has no visuals, but This is my first Theory Project, finished and ready to be judged. It's nothing great at all, but It'll give me an A, I'm sure of it. I called it Simon's Lament after my kitten. :) reminds me of him wanting so horribly to go outside, and instead being playful and troublesome inside. :) Sorry the music is a little odd sounding. It's MIDI playing it so it's sounds quite electronic.

Exam Week might really kill me.

I missed my sight singing exam this afternoon because I was too busy flipping out over my flute jury.
Which went...decent. I actually didn't cry DURING my jury this time. So that's a win? but I stopped during a phrase because I freaked and missed 3 notes...but kept pushing on. Which is also good right? :/ I need to get better at this quickly. Also, I aced my HMXP exam that I forgot about and did in like 10 mins. XD Talk about barely making it.

Tomorrow will hopefully be a make up exam for sight singing.
As well as a Theory test I will freakin Ace!!!! Or else I'll cry.

Friday is a Piano exam at 4pm, that I am also freaking out over.

The Thursday on the 13th, It's going down. 8pm- voice methods.
11:30am- educ 210
3pm- aural skills, dictation.

gah. I am ready for friday the 14th to be here.

First Singing Concert

So it wasn't as bad as I though it would be. Being in ΔΟ means singing in front of people....a lot. We sang at Olive Garden to a little boy for his birthday. :) It was too cute.
Tonight's concert was with all of the girls, and some random solos/duets in between. I played Hanukkah flute music with Christine. :) It was fun. Our audience was a total of 6. count'em, SIX people. haha I worry over nothing.

Sometimes, It's a good thing to get lost in little worries to avoid big issues, just for a moment...

end of the year is not happening fast enough

SERIOUSLY.

Sight reading can not be amazing. especially when you're on the spot in front of people.

That means don't yell at me please. :(

In other news, The best part of my day? My new pats jersey. :D

goals met?

So I did as I promised and played my butt off during break so far. I played sooo much that my fingers shook after a while. Goals were mostly made, but not all sadly. :(

Goals met:
Playing the Jury piece [vivaldi] decently in movement three.
Worked out a few kinks in movement one.
Really made movement two beautiful.
Played major scales up to 110. [not quite I know, but better.]
Played etudes 2 notches faster

Goals not met:
Playing minor scales. :(

yeah, I know I probably could've made time for the minor scales, but I was being a slacker and also freaking out over my jury and worrying over if I still have my sound or not. I guess I'll find out this Monday if all my hard work was worth it.

The clock is running thin and I'm still freaking out over my jury piece. Will this happen every year? :/
Totally not looking forward to my senior recital...

HAPPY TURKEY DAY!

So It is about thanksgiving time and I just wanted to say happy thanksgiving!

Mine will be filled with re-learning major scales in a quick and speedy 16th note runs as well as learned ALL forms of minor scales just as quickly....who's excited?! yeah...not i.

Last lesson was one of those really rare good lessons where Jill was so happy and told me I played great and my sound was beautiful etc. etc.

It was really weird because she came by and gave me a hug last night before my concert and was like, "Keep playing beautifully. Keep that sound and you'll do great tonight."

Psh. we played stupid easy music. Like seriously Middle school music...It said so on the music. I'm giving our band director who issued the music to us some slack because this is her first semester as a college professor in general. But next semester, seriously if this does not change, we're gonna have some problems.

But yeah, Jill actually was quite emotional or something. It was weird.

My goals for thanksgiving break? Learn all minor scales at least. and get major scales at 112 using 16th notes. Also clean up movement one and two in my jury piece. [a vivaldi song.] and work out and decently play movement three.

Well. I hope my jury will go decently. I need as many As as possible this year! I'm alone in fixing this. No one else can do this for me, right? :) I can do it.

Russia?

So most of my readers are Russian? Well ok. Thanks for reading guys. :)

Worked on my theory project. So far, I messed up on one small part, and had to be helped with 2 chords. I am suddenly understanding theory and doing well! I'm so excited to finish writing this piece and curious on how my composition skills will develop over time.

Maybe one day I'll compose a piece for Momma. ;)

Band is getting on my last nerve. We're playing middle school music that is not even slightly challenging and half of us are falling asleep! [Which is why half the time the song sounds horrid because we're not paying attention.] We're playing a new piece for middle school bands called "Hopewell" by Nicole Chamberlin and How the Grinch Stole Christmas, middle school level. And First Suite in Eb by Holst. [again.] It's all very annoying and a little insulting.

In other news. Practice is starting to kill my fingers and this diet idea was interrupted by violent puking from a stomach bug I got from the middle school I help teach at. >.> oh the joys of teaching?

flute playing

My flute playing is super super slow. which is a major problem. and every time I try to build it up, it falls back down. Problems? HUGE. I need to figure out what to do to fix this. :/ 2 1/2 more years min. till I graduate....

fall 2012

Is totally almost over. :)

Which means killer exam times.... :(

Is it summer yet?

gah. Next semester will be horrid. too.

first time ever

teaching a band class. ALONE.
:D
not just flutes.
not just anything.
AN ACTUAL CLASS.
it was 7th grade woodwinds and it started rough and it ended great. :) I really liked it, but still, high school is the way to go. haha. I was like expecting fights and people not playing and I was freaking out. But it actually went smoothly. Flutes were all sorts of smug because I was teaching and they already knew me. It was adorable. haha. :)

It was a great experience and I'm excited for more.
In other news, My jury piece will be a Vivaldi piece that's....decent. I don't mind playing it so far. Let's just hope Jill doesn't get crazy with herself again.

In theory, I'm doing really well. Only a little bit confusing.

Piano is kicking my butt, but I'm fighting back!

Aural is about the same, singing well but dictation sucks. D:

Welp. There's your updates.

Also. I shall be a crappy, sleepless musician soon. Because A diet starts tomorrow....God help me. I love food too much.

Education Class

Are about THE. dumbest classes you'll ever take.
As interesting as it is to learn about how much smart my little sister And tori are compared to the average child, i don't need to know.

Also.
My student. is just a student who tries hard in school. She is not a subject. She is not an "it". She is not an idiot. I'm pretty tired of putting a packet together to point out areas she's not good at to make her seem dumb. It depresses me. If this is what a teacher does the first year, This is not gonna fly.

Positive note? Totally passing with at most a B in theory. :) win.

Alto Flute

So I know I'm suppose to be a flute player and all...but I'm not feeling it anymore.

I kinda blame Jill for letting me pick up the alto flute...

It's the only instrument I practice so much. I seriously have a callous on my finger from playing...

I think this is a bit of a problem. Mainly because there's no such thing as a alto flute major in education OR performance.

Time to many flute more interesting and not so much of a hassle....not sure how to do that just yet...

This is my very good friend Christine. I just wanted to let the world hear her when she's at her worst. Her Senior Recital [well a part of it] will be uploaded as well as time goes by.

Notice how amazingly dark her sound is. :D I want a sound pretty dark after hearing her play.

Also. She changed her embouchure THIS year because of a serious jaw problem she created by playing flute too much. yeah. I said it. you can play your flute too much. :o