Technically, I should have started this a year ago...

Hello anyone who may, may not come across this...
I honestly should have started this much longer than a year ago. maybe more like since 10th grade or so when I felt the need to pursue my hopes as a flutist and a band director.

Long ago I started blogging to get my thoughts out and not keep them locked in. I just ended up making it public. I never realized how many people may or may not read blogs. I was guessing maybe 10 at most in one year. one or two people who are closest to me that really read almost every one.

Now this one is to really record what goes on in my mind as I try to get through college as a Music Education major [totally not as easy as it sounds] and hopefully teach in South Korea!

Last year was horrid. I didn't have the slightest clue on what I was getting into and where to start, how to really study for anything, how to even be social with the people who could help me! So here's a little run down of it all.

First semester, I came in scared as all get out and with very little theory knowledge and ZERO Aural skills knowledge. [to those who do not know, Aural Skills is a course that teaches you ear trainning, how to listen and name pitches, melodic patterns/rhythms, and hear differences in intervals of notes.] [ALSO! Theory of music, aka what music really is or the technical aspects of it all] I some how and strangely to me made it into the first set of actual classes and skipped basic classes of them....God only knows how...I guess on that test so much! I knew I was going to fail out not only because of the horrid grades, but A.) No textbooks to study out of or do homework [10% of your grade! sometimes 15%!!] and B.) I didn't understand anything the professors said after the 2nd week.

Freak out times? very much so yes.

2ND Semester. same deal, but more books. still not enough. [I have money problems.] now to top it off, I felt like THE WORST flute player of all time. The kids who play with me are quite amazing. I have stage freight a bit badly and tend to shake a lot whenever I'm being judged. I'll admit it. I cried ALOT this past year. I almost got less than a 3.0 for the whole year losing scholarships.

BUT NOT THIS YEAR!

I am fully a member of Delta Omicron. A sisterhood at my school of musicians. They already have helped me big time, and I do plan on taking advantage of their study sessions and other help they offer! :) Great group of girls. And I have an amazing Big Sister. ;)

This year I already am fully prepared and have already started studying what I remember from last year. I have old tests that I plan on redoing before classes start next week and seeing if I understand any better now.

For once, I am truly excited yet very very nervous.

I will not promise this blog will be happy and hopeful 24/7. But I do promise to be honest.

My goal this year is to pass Theory and Aural 1 with an A! I will make it. ;)